Good Times Bad Times

This has been one of those days. I was waiting for it to get over and am glad it did!

It all started when pondy called me up to let me know that he was not gonna make it to the Boston-New York trip. I got so seriously shit pained!! Why the hell was I depending on him anyways? He's being treated as a slave by his prof and he doesn't even realise it. He just get orders and keeps working. I dunno why he made me wait all this time and finally didn't even ask his prof for a holiday.

Pondy pained me so much that I knew my day was gonna be bad. I remembered Potha telling me that he was going to come to NYC for 4th July. So I emailed him if I cud join him. I mailed Hardy to know if I cud stay with him as I was alone. I cudn't sleep well because I didn't know wat I was gonna do all alone in the trip. Anyways, I had to go to the license office the next day and so I had to wake up early. And that's where I got another surprise: I failed in the driving test!!!! Failed in freaking test in Orlando!!! It's the most peaceful driving test ever.. it's liking me taking a hi school maths test: I know I'll do well.. but somehow I failed.

I felt reeeeely shitty now... I came back home and knew that all I had to do was sleep. I woke up and checked my email to know that Potha wasn't coming to NYC and Hardy was going out during the long weekend: more problems. I convinced Ravi to come along. Hope he does. He seems to be the only ray of hope right now. I refrained from booking my ticket till the day was over. Hopefully the days ahead will be better!

Girls Girls Girls!!!

I have no idea why my whole life has been devoid of girls. I was very innocent in my school times, so much so that I was made to sit beside a naughty girl in one class because the teacher used to get irritated by the girl and he thought I was the most calm boy (sidha-sadha ladka) who would subside the girl's attitude. I used to sit with a friend during all classes save this one class when I would change my seat to sit beside the girl.

From the very moment I came to senses about boys are boys and girls are girls, the girls started moving away from my life and vice versa. I was good friends with my schoolmates until we were classmates. Once I moved to intermediate, all was gone: there were no girls in the class and no contacts. By this time I had even given up thinking abt girls, so much that I started running away from them. There was this girl in my class that used to ask me to wait for her so that we could go home together. I went home with her a couple of times, always embarassed to see people staring at us, or so I thought. (I was too innocent to realise that the people were looking at the girl (who was gorgeous btw)!! I never realised it till I was in college.) I started feeling uneasy and starting running off after the class. I did this almost for a week. The girl used to ask me to wait after the class, but I remember running away like a dog.

The next axe fell when I entered college and mailed my friend telling some private stories. That bastard showed it to the whole gang of girls and I was quite embarassed to talk to any of them. The next axe fell when I sent a *guyish* email to a group which had included my girl-classmates just a day back. I was completely screwed. I've never ever faced my school mates after this. I was the innocent guy in school, but now I was just another jerk!

I thought that being in US would bring a change in my fortune. But nice try! This place makes me desperate because there are so many beautiful women around, but none I could go and talk to because they'r all Americans. I am interested in Indian girls, but there are none at all!!!! If they are good-looking (which are just a handful), they already have a bf. Basically no girl to go out with et al!

Hope there comes a major change in the near future....